I think at the end of the day, they mean well. Selling final expense insurance to Senior citizens; during the training- they told us heartwarming stories, I choked up on several occasions. I was so excited to make sure families were taken care of- to be that person who would look out for the elderly. And I was good at it- really good at it, actually. But that's what kept sending up the red flag; I was really good at this job- but I didn't love it, something didn't feel right. My part was to basically read thru a script, connect with them, then 'patch in' an actually Insurance salesman. Sounds easy enough. But after making a few calls, and receiving some feedback; I started to realize they wanted me to be pushy and deceiving. 'Make up a story...' , 'Pretend to connect to them....', 'They only need to think that you care about them....'. That last comment was the response to me when I told my 'team leader' I was really having a hard time with these calls morally. One of the questions we were supposed to ask was if they had been diagnosed with Dementia or Alzheimers-- having gone thru that with my grandfather, I asked 'what if they don't realize/understand/remember that they have been' and I was told 'That's not our problem'. Now I'm sure there is some background they run-- but all I could picture was my poor sweet Grandpa picking up one of these calls and getting suckered into dishing out more money than he even realized because I was distracting him with sweet talk. I came home crying that night. Luckily, I have the amazing husband that I do; he knows me, he knows that job was not for me. So I stayed home the next day with my sick babe, then dropped off my stuff.
This all happened last week (Friday). Since then, I've been keeping busy with the fam, the apartment and sending out a bazillion applications....However, Rob and I finally had a 'sit down discussion' - ya'll know when it's a 'sit down', that means business! Anyway, with the holidays coming up- our need to be able to head back to Ohio to see family, and have enough time to hopefully meet up with the Buffalo folk too.... and with the thought of expanding the family again at some point; getting a job for me right now is just an absurd idea. Maybe for the holiday season? Lord knows I can't control my spending for Christmas- but we'll limit my availability to only evenings and weekends until we fly home.
Poor Audrey, that kid is obsessed with her Daycare. When I go to drop her off, she gets all smiley and starts bouncing in my arms to see her teachers. It's going to kill me to tell her that she's stuck with me again--luckily she has no idea what I'm saying still (I hope!). On the other hand- this kid has been to the Dr weekly since she's started (yes, that is only 3 times, but still). Daycare has given us 2 ear infections, a virus and a stomach bug--in only 3 weeks!! I've done laundry three times since last night so that the apartment doesn't have random vom stained items laying around ..... I do really love the snuggles though ;-)
On a good note- we went to Trucktober last weekend. A gather of a ton of Food Trucks, and our pal Kelly joined us. It was a B-E-A-utiful day! Perfect amount of sun mixed with a crisp chill breeze. I'm disappointed that we only tried 1 truck (tacos...shock!!!) but that 1 truck was seriously devine. Next year I am determine to expand my horizon!
Audrey is walking now- she literally came home 1 day, took her first steps and then was running the next day! We've decided she refuses to do anything until she's perfected it, haha.
Rob and I have been entertaining ourselves with Jeopardy episodes and playing Blokus- I know, we are gonna have a ton of friends in no time, right? lol. I am determined to get out there now that I am officially back to SAHM and get into some mommy groups.
Ok- now that I've overcome my fear of broadcasting my huge 2 week mistake...I promise to be back more regularly :) I've missed ya'll!
XOXO
My lil' craft project. Do I have a problem?
BIG GIRL car seat!!
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